Glosoli Posted September 13, 2010 Report Share Posted September 13, 2010 has anyone ever felt that cross between rage, and self hate... the kind that comes with realizing you WANT to die, but know you can't do it?because i've realized. everything that's wrong with my life is my fault.i can't touch something and NOT have it turn into shit.i feel like the worst kind of bad luck charm.nothing is ever going to be right with me, but nobody has the decency to just put me out of my misery. i'm no good to anyone, least of all myself.i don't have any money. i'm living off the kindness of friends. who will inevitably become tired of me and want me to go away.no money for a psych., and even if I did, I haven't met anyone that was able to help me. i need REAL SOLUTIONS not idealistic feel good bullshit that doesn't FIX anything.the best i can do right now is pretend to smile at jokes that don't reach me, putting one foot in front of the other on my epic trip to nowhere.i don't even know why i'm postingthis doesn't matterat best i get nice wishes from people i don't knowi just want to sleep forever. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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