prettynlost Posted September 2, 2011 Report Share Posted September 2, 2011 Hi,Im very down and feel life is no longer worth living!Im waking up out of nightmare into another one...the reality of the past 4years of destruction...I feel Ive ruined my whole life Im 42years old female and have nothing to live for,only 4years ago I was the girl with everything,many friends,money,successful businesses and I believed I was pretty and still looked very young,now in that short time Im old/unattractive don't care about myself/lost all my friends/husband children,all my money and walking around in shock..Im a person I dont know or at all like nor does anyone else.....I dont know why exactly I went into "meltdown"and spend 4years doing everything to ruin my life...it is ruined I don't see any way out of this?Im ashamed,lonely and dont know where the girl Ive known all my life has gone or if she is still their?I guess in a way ruining my own life gave me some control over the feelings of powerlessness as i was being stalked by a person who;s intent was to ruin me and I did a lot for that person,then finding out those closest to me may of been involved?Anyway thats some of it,point is I just wish to die really I do.....Im worthless and have nothing to offer and believe 42years old is just too old to have nothing to offer the world....God am I better off dead,I cant see any hope for me!Thanks you for reading my funk,I just cant get out off...any advice would be gratefully received! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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