I feel a little calmer than yesterday, but the anger is there still. The loneliness is there too, as usual, I don't think that will ever change unless I can learn how to connect with other people, or even to care about other people. At least I've got the pets. I realized that going back on the birth control has caused me to gain some weight, not a lot yet but enough to make me aware of it. I know it's there, I can see and feel it, hoping this doesn't start something I can't control (either way).