I guess it's normal for bad days to come in clusters, a reflection possibly of filtering the actual day through one's own moods.

You know, one trouble with a completely typewritten medium is how easy it makes it for me to just detach completely and to write as if it were an exercise in composition. Well, for one thing, I'm good at composition, and not so good at moods and emotions. Unfortunately, it's a form of dissociation; one which is more acceptable to society, but still leaves me split between a suffering part and an oblivious part. After all, being oblivious to my own suffering is the entire point.

So, even in a grammatically correct composition, I'm doing something useful: telling myself, "I see you, I know you're suffering, even though I don't have any better coping mechanism than this, yet." Awareness is a beginning.