I don't want to explain anymore, because it's so hard. I just feel so awful inside. I feel like nothing I do would ever matter in my life or in my family's.

Stopped my medication for a few months now. Maybe a bad idea. Maybe I have to take it again. Failure again, again, again.

The people at the call center I've just been accepted in said they won't hire women who are already pregnant, and now I find that I'm delayed by a week or so.

I can't stand it ....