:(Anyone else have trouble being "thankful" for Thanksgiving?
I mean I guess I could be thankful that I'm getting divorced.
Or how about finding my father on the kitchen floor when I was 12? If I hadn't stayed after school to waste time could I have gotten home early enough to call an ambulance and save him?
I should be thankful that my mom completely snapped and I got sent to stay with my godparents after my dad's funeral. No wait I should be even more thankful that my godbrother raped me while I was there.
I know! I should be thankful my mom decided she loved my dad more than me and killed herself when I was 14 because she just couldn't live without him anymore.
My great Aunt Esther dying 8 months after that.
Or losing everything and everyone I ever let myself care about.
I truly truly bone deep hate the holidays.