Today is a fairly good day. My anxiety is low, although not gone. I have made the decision that I am not going home for Christmas and I feel good about it. Going home is way to much anxiety for me, I don't feel like a member of that family, I feel like an outsider. I am working on rebuilding my relationship with my sisters outside of the holiday get togethers but it is just not healthy for me to go for the big gatherings. I need to remind myself everyday that it is okay to make this choice and that I am not betraying anyone and/or letting anyone down. We will see how I feel about it on the 23rd or 24th of the month.
After my son gets up from his nap we are going to navigate the mall to find some xmas gifts, so that should be fun being the day after black Friday, but we need to get out so it will be worth it I HOPE.
Anyway have a good day everyone!!