How is it that what seems like a good idea to me right now is so scary to me in the morning? So much that I cower in bed until I can't implement it and just have to go to work another day without doing anything. Well, okay, it's scary now too, but I can at least contemplate that nothing else will change anything.

At times I can slow the spinning cycle of fear in my thoughts, but somehow I can't break out of it.