So today I seem to be back on the normal plane of reality again. Actually had a pretty decent day; felt good socializing w/ classmates (normally it feels too nerve wracking) and was able to perform on midterms. I was able to get up and go this morning. I found out it helps to have a time target. I still missed it by 15 minutes but I was able to get out the door in 45 minutes. Major accomplishment.

I still hear the intrusive thoughts but for some reason the more math-intensive my schoolwork the better I feel. Maybe it is just my right brain that is depressed so if I keep my left brain active I can get around it. Semester break is on now. More work but also travel for holidays. The main thing I have been looking forward to is seeing the love of my life halfway round the planet. I hope I remember everything I am supposed to do before then.