Haven't written here for a while since things seemed to be going smoothly. Felt like I was gradually getting better on my current meds. Now I am gradually getting worse. Still dealing with a bunch of concentration issues, which leads to frustration which leads to self doubt and that downward spiral into depressive thinking and self destructive impulses.

Basically when it was semester break I didn't have as many deadlines so it wasn't such a problem. Then when work & school started back up I started getting in trouble again. It's only three months to graduation though. I am hoping I can coast through until then but at the same time I need to be finding a job so that I can get back to my home state after graduation. Goddam I am panicking. :eek: