Progress today, I identified what seems to trigger the automatic thoughts. Stress seems to be the big cause. Yet I also seem to have a hair trigger for feeling overwhelmed. I can't really write more. The more I try to figure this out, the further I go away from reality. When I close my eyes I see vivid, dark images. Should probably learn to paint or use graphics software if these persist. I would become a decent horror artist.

My brain seems to be resolving random noises into English words. I think that I could easily freak out over that but how would that help. I do want to find a way to get around this though. It's hard to concentrate.