Felt okay for the past few days but intrusive thoughts seem to be coming back. Dealing with this using mindfulness. They are telling me to commit suicide and a number of other not-so-uplifting things. They really want something else but I haven't figured it out yet. Might have had visual hallucinations as well last night.

I'm also working on thinking positive. This is an ongoing project for me. Need to find sense of purpose in life and self esteem. Not unwarranted sappy self esteem but learn how to get along with self, or understand what others like me for. People tend to like me when they meet me although I cannot identify what I have to offer. Might be because I have very broad range of interests so have something in common with just about anyone. Find way to get less socially isolated. Need more spiritual connection.