Ended up celebrating graduation with a night at the bar that stretched into 11 or so next morning. crashed at noon with NO SEROQUEL:D:D:D. I didn't realize it was possible to sleep without but I guess 30 hours awake can do that. Anyway, felt great to wake up and not feel stupid, but intrusive thoughts are back. Suicidal ruminations have taken on a life of their own and I don't know what to do about it. The precipitating factor was the ceremony and the huge crowd that triggered this wave. It's good to socialize but I think I have literally exchanged at least a hundred handshakes and a few dozen hugs.