Dear Mazes

Sorry for not catching up at the moment, but I probably will take a look into your blog later. At the meantime, what is your purpose, and how do you spend your everydays? Do you have/want a job, friends, acquaintances, children?

I'm taking risperdal, I've taken up 10 kg-s of weight in the last two months, and I sleep about 13 hours a day, but it doesn't bother me. The fact that it would bother you, makes ne think that you have some purpose, something better to do than lying in the bed. I was wondering if you could or want to focus on that. So, if you dont mind me wasting your time, tell me a bit about your life while I check some of your recent blog entries.

Best wishes

Peter

Ralph, sorry, I'm not a native English and I'm new here. I thought mazes is the username. Best wishes anyway

We are here and listening, Ralph.

How are things this week?

i hope the retreat goes well.

best of luck.

what is my purpose - to die without regrets

how do I spend my days - looking for ways to prove I'm not an idiot.

Do I have/want a job - have; friends - want; acquaintances - have; children - no. The last thing I should be in charge of is molding a young life.

I have some purpose, but I'm a failure socially. People neither like nor dislike me, I'm basically invisible most of the time. People have told me about parties, that I've attended, only to be surprised when I say, yeah I was there. Nobody really cares.

finding, I'm still stuck. To be honest I'm wondering if it's all worth it. The effort to get sober and all that, like what does it matter?

Depression and addiction create a groove that is hard to swim against, to mix metaphors. You will have to think outside the fox to get the answers you need. (I just made that up-- sorry to slander foxes).

We know you here, Ralph. You are compassionate, smart, and these are great traits in a friend if you can give yourself more chances with people. Parties are not always the best venue for making friends-- why judge yourself?

Could you take up bird watching? Join a bowling league? Have you ever been in a support group? Something that goes against this tide.

Thinking of you, Ralph.