Well, it's four in the morning and I'm already here in my parents' house. My daughter is sleeping so peacefully (I love watching her sleep).

I just came from my psychiatrist yesterday and got my meds adjustment. I also talked to him about therapy and why he hasn't mentioned it to me. He said that although I could certainly benefit from it, I don't HAVE to if it's not financially possible right now. Because therapy is a lot more expensive as I need to see my therapist more often than I do my doctor, plus I still need to continue my meds adjustments with him so it's gonna double my expenses (my parents' expenses actually). And I found out that my doctor is not formally trained in CBT. I mentioned to him a possible alternative which is going to a priest regularly and he agreed. And he even said that I can already benefit here in this forum when it comes to targetting those irrational thoughts.

These things we talked about calmed me down somewhat, knowing that there are alternatives for me. I guess it's up to me now.