welcome to the mind of paranoia

where expression is limited by fear, and a dibilitating lack of self confidence

so acute, rendering one to silence of the mind and soul

bitter memories of failure and rejection collecting in ones mind

a plague of all too critical philosophys and and harsh self judgment of self

a mind where possibility and the unknown reek havok on ones actions

both socially and professionally

welcome to the mind of paranoia, where nothing is simple and everything is problematic

summer tunes hanging in the tree

long stifling days, spent in a blaze

joking and toking long into the night

breath in deep

stop, smell the beat

pot and beer, sweaty bodies, trampled grass

a sinking sun a rising moon

the night is young, time to get gone

feet moving to the sound of the beat

girls, girls, girls and more girls

eyes wide from lack of sleep

break night is hard to beat

wonderious times, rediculus crimes

old friends and lots of fun

man I miss everyone

Communication

struggles of speech, what to say?

talk of petty things, nothing to deep

no interests sparked, self alienation

I must break this cycle of self deprivation

interests waning, heart unsure

mind in turmoil, i'm out the door

taking refuge on the streets

simply wishing for endless sleep

thoughts of fear, dwelling in the deep

back to the beggening, I still can't sleep

Saturday night

as I headed to 12th, familiar scents of hobo's and shitty coffee inflamed the nostrles, lingering long after I left the subway

Finally I arrived at my destination, a block of child hood memories

I found my friends and set out to paint the town red

first stop was out local farmisist, then we hit the liquer store, with all out provisions we set out on a quest, girls girls girls and not much else being the goal

We wondered the streets for hours, trying to cultivate the being we sought

alas, we were ruined from the start, the liquer was done before we knew it, and from there things progressed steadly downward, not all was lost however, for a good time was had by all

and in the end, we resolved to do it all over

So what do ya think?