Hey, thanks for the feedback! I wish I could go the prostitute route to try and build some sort of confidence, but unfortunately living in South Africa it is just too risky. I wish i could just find some sort of dating site where all the women had a fetish for small knobs. My biggest fear is the first sexual encounter. I really think that if I found someone who accepted me for me I would be content, I am just not willing to put myself on the chopping block just to be humiliated. I do not trust anyone!