Thank you for this post and your other posts, @YahwehOrTheHighway. I have been lurking in this forum off and in for years, and this inspired me to step out of my shell and tell my truth.
I have suffered silently since 9th grade and now i am 38. I have no one to talk to about this issue. Even as adults, there is a taboo about being small. This is insane. I wish i had the balls to just be open and unashamed and own it and eventually be proud and confident about my body, but i feel like i can't. I would rather suffer in silence and pretend like i don't feel small and worthless and emasculated. Even in the face of huge life stresses and risks, i think, i would play the loser in every other category of life, just to have a couple more inches or more girth. Like if i could just make a girl's jaw drop in amazement at the sight of my dick, just once, then i could handle all the worst of what life can throw at me, and be just fine.
But here i am, quite privileged in so many ways, but lacking in the one place that means the most to me.