Stealth Enhancer Experience

[YOTH]

So I'm pretty sure I have body dysmorphia. I recently did an experiment with a stealth enhancer. My cock and balls looked better than ever while I was naked (exactly what I want it to look like) but when I was dressed I felt exactly the same. Paranoid about my appearance and convinced I look small. I just don't dress well. I really have to accept the fact that I will always feel this way and I have to get over it. I went out to the shops with it on and it felt great, but it looked exactly the same. Is it possible, that how I feel is the only important factor? If I feel confident, I look confident? If I play defence, I'm seen as being defensive about something? It's well and truly fucked. I honestly thought it'd be a game changer, but it isn't. It's exactly the same. My penis was fully extended at 5.5 (which is what I've always dreamed of) and yet I looked exactly the same. How is this freaking possible. I defo felt bigger, that much is true. But I didn't look any bigger. The Stealth is great because it keeps you fully extended, but it changes nothing. Also, I have to say, my cock felt a little strained too. It's a perfect fit, but I felt stretched the day after. I didn't wear it today. I needed a break. I have a mental illness over here, and it's treated like a comedy sketch. What do I have to do? I sometimes wish I was a chick. Must be nice not to have a built in status symbol that people judge you on. I don't know, I'll maybe keep wearing it and see how I feel in a few weeks. 

[IrmaJean]

Our brains create connections all the time and it's possible that this can apply to our thoughts as well. The more we think about something  (even if it's a distorted thought) the easier it becomes to think it again and again and again.

Do you have interests or activities that you enjoy?  I find sometimes if I get caught up in a cycle of thoughts, it can be very difficult to free my mind of that.  So I try to find some ways to let go and enjoy the present moment.

I do think we can project our inner feelings outwardly too.

I'm sorry that you struggle with this. I hope you feel better about yourself and your body. Take care.

[YOTH]

3 hours ago, IrmaJean said:

Our brains create connections all the time and it's possible that this can apply to our thoughts as well. The more we think about something  (even if it's a distorted thought) the easier it becomes to think it again and again and again.

Do you have interests or activities that you enjoy?  I find sometimes if I get caught up in a cycle of thoughts, it can be very difficult to free my mind of that.  So I try to find some ways to let go and enjoy the present moment.

I do think we can project our inner feelings outwardly too.

I'm sorry that you struggle with this. I hope you feel better about yourself and your body. Take care.

It's a funny old thing. It can change from day today (in size and how I feel about it) Most days I'm fine, on the odd day it can consume me. I wish it was just in my head, but I've been told by many people over the years that I have no bulge, so I know it's not totally dysmorphia. It's hard to explain it to people, but being a man is all about posture. The truth is nothing to men, lies work just fine as long as they're not looked at as freaks. If men think you're small, you're small. It doesn't matter how big you are in reality, it matters what other men think. That dictates how you're treated and I've been treated like shit. Guys lose respect for someone they think is small really quickly, believe me. I don't give it too much thought recently tbh, but in fairness I've been thinking about it a lot more since visiting here lol. But occasionally I think I've cracked it, and then it falls away as just another hair brained scheme to feel normal. I know it sounds like I'm being irrational, but I wish it was just that. It's a 50/50 split of overthinking and actual aggro. Fuck it, I'm done with this forum. It just reinforces old patterns of thought that I don't need. 

[ReduxRestored]

5 hours ago, YeshuandMe said:

So I'm pretty sure I have body dysmorphia

Damn right.

6 hours ago, YeshuandMe said:

Is it possible, that how I feel is the only important factor? If I feel confident, I look confident?

37 minutes ago, YeshuandMe said:

It's a funny old thing. It can change from day today (in size and how I feel about it) Most days I'm fine, on the odd day it can consume me. --------------- I don't give it too much thought recently tbh, but in fairness I've been thinking about it a lot more since visiting here lol. But occasionally I think I've cracked it, and then it falls away as just another hair brained scheme to feel normal. I know it sounds like I'm being irrational, but I wish it was just that. It's a 50/50 split of overthinking and actual aggro.

Yeah it's all mental feelings. 100% It's all in the broken and fucked up mind.

I'm convinced there are millions and fucking millions of guys exactly like me and you all over. Most of them don't have screwed lives. Most of them don't care. Most of them don't even think about it. Not at all.

Why did we have to be different? Did it have to be this way? Is there some reason?? Dunno.

38 minutes ago, YeshuandMe said:

Fuck it, I'm done with this forum. It just reinforces old patterns of thought that I don't need. 

I think you are right. 

What is the point of this fucking forum anyway?

We don't have a problem (not if we're 5 inches or more we don't) our minds are the bastard problem!!

[IrmaJean]

The forum is here as place for people to support and hopefully help one another. The hope is that it can make a positive difference for our members. If a member feels that being here is making things worse, I hope you will do what you need to take care of yourself. We want you to be healthy and well.

I hope you both feel better.

 

[Obsolete]

I've come to this forum at my worst and found solace here. I'm sorry if it's not working out too well for you guys. I wish you both well. ??

[YOTH]

6 hours ago, TinyBlackDick said:

I've come to this forum at my worst and found solace here. I'm sorry if it's not working out too well for you guys. I wish you both well. ??

I get that. But I'm pretty sure I read one of your posts where you mention not coming on here as often because it gets you down. It just gets makes me feel low reading certain posts on here and posting myself. I want to resolve my issues and be done with them, but it's hard sometimes. There is absolutely no compassion for this shit, it's all jokes and finger pointing and posturing. I just want my sex life confidence to be mirrored in the way I look in public. Redux doesn't have the dressing badly problem, and I'm glad. Nobody should have to go through this hell, nobody. It's all well and good trying to psychoanalyse why people with SPS feel the way they do, but it's simple. We want to feel normal, nothing more, nothing less. I don't think it's too much to ask to be treated like a man and not some overgrown child. 

[Obsolete]

12 minutes ago, YeshuandMe said:

I get that. But I'm pretty sure I read one of your posts where you mention not coming on here as often because it gets you down. 

Hmm! I honestly don't remember making such a post. I have left this place before but never because it gets me down. In fact after leaving for a few months, I came right back when I needed help most. 

[ReduxRestored]

2 hours ago, YeshuandMe said:

Redux doesn't have the dressing badly problem, and I'm glad.

Me? I'm a snappy fuckin dresser lol.

Seriously I kinda get what you are saying (I think I do)

[YOTH]

4 hours ago, TinyBlackDick said:

Hmm! I honestly don't remember making such a post. I have left this place before but never because it gets me down. In fact after leaving for a few months, I came right back when I needed help most. 

Maybe it was someone else actually. I did think it was you, but my memory is dog shit, so you're probably right. 

[YOTH]

1 hour ago, DurexRedux said:

Me? I'm a snappy fuckin dresser lol.

Seriously I kinda get what you are saying (I think I do)

Yeh, I mean bulge wise rather than style wise lol. That's my cross to bear. It drives me up the wall. I was just reading a post about a girl who's ex-boyfriend has a small cock but her friends thought he was well hung because he dressed so well, so she played along. Her new boyfriend has an 8 inch cock and small balls. Her friends think he has a small cock because his bulge is non existent and she defends him every time the topic comes up. From what I can gather the variants for a normal bulge are:

1. Flaccid cock size

2.Balls (are they low hangers or high riders)

3. Ass cheeks and thighs (underestimated in bulge variants but a fat arse helps keep your package tight, I've got a flat ass like Hank Hill )

4. What you wear (tight, loose, type of clothes/jeans/shorts/trousers)

5. Underwear (Do you stuff/and or wear Andrew Christians etc.)

From what I can gather, most people dress well. I fall in to the 1% of men that dress very badly and are constantly anxious about how they appear. It can be very stressful. Winter is a great time for me. Long coat, no worries. Summer is a fucking nightmare...and I love summer. I'd love to be more active than I am. I'd love to take my son swimming or out to a farm/park/play centre/on holiday etc. There are so many things I don't do because of this it's sometimes unbearable. Occasionally I get a combo right and go out for a walk or something and it feels great. But the last time I did it, my balls shrunk to nothing as the walk progressed and my stealth underwear failed me leaving me looking like a right twat I'm front of a couple who looked, looked again and walked off smirking. I have an average cock ffs. I don't have a micropenis, it's 5.5. Granted it's not porno long, but it does just fine in making my gf cum every time. Why do I have to suffer this fucking embarrassment? It's bloody soul destroying sometimes, and it doesn't actually depict the truth. I'm short changed on a daily basis. Even my close friend who I've told about this kind of doesn't believe me, I can tell. He thinks I'm covering for a micropenis. I had a friend who out right told me he hasn't been in a relationship for 10 years because he believes his cock is to small and yet the fuckers balls were huge, and he looked huge. I honestly am open to any suggestions on what to wear. I don't want to hear any psycho babble because believe or not, I'm a very level headed guy. I'm very compassionate and forgiving and feel like my mind is in check, so much so, I see pretty clearly. This isn't something in my head, it's the real deal. I've been wearing the Stealth more and my confidence has soared. I feel bigger and super confident waking about. But the problem is, it makes me sore and stretched. I'm very concerned that it could cause lasting damage and I'm not willing to lose my erection strength. It's all I've got in reality. It isn't worth losing my reality over a public phantom cock. Anyway, I've talked enough. Thanks for your replies ☮

 

[Obsolete]

5 hours ago, YeshuandMe said:

 

 

 

[Obsolete]

1 hour ago, YeshuandMe said:

Maybe it was someone else actually. I did think it was you, but my memory is dog shit, so you're probably right. 

I have a terrible memory too mate. In fact there's quite  a bit wrong with me. I think the best thing I've done for the world so far is not reproduce. The world's fucked up already as it is.