Electrum Posted July 9, 2010 Report Share Posted July 9, 2010 I have a daughter with a guy I dated for about 5 years. Our daughter is 2. He's been abusive in the past and is extremely absent minded and supposedly bipolar. Even if he is bipolar, he likes to use that as an excuse for EVERYTHING and it gets really frustrating. (And for the record I'm familiar with that disease, but you have to admit it does seem to be overdiagnosed to say the least.) But anyway...I left him a few months ago and recently came back. The main reason I came back was because of our daughter. He recieved full custody for reasons I still have problems understanding and accepting. I always worry about when she gets older how he's going to treat her, but that's a different post in a different forum I guess! Anyway, so here I am back at his place. I don't have a place to live at the moment so I've just been bouncing around places hardly seeing her at all, so that's why I did this. I love being around my daughter 24/7 but I cannot stand him. I'm actually more concerned with how I'M acting than how he's acting. I've been an uber bitch for the past week or so and I don't even understand why I can't just try and be nice for the sake of peace.I'm extremely irritable. Like, moreso than I've felt in a long long time. The thing that drives me completely bonkers is his absent mindedness. It also deeply concerns me for my daughter. He can't even do simple things like drive a car without the possibility of being very easily distracted. He also does things like give her a bottle that obviously hasn't been washed and has moldy milk stuck in it (I made the mistake of trusting him to wake up with her so I could sleep in). Like WTF how do you not see that!? It's like he has such trouble waking up that he might as well be mentally disabled in the mornings. And how is this man taking care of my child when I'm gone? It angers me so much. And they had the nerve to say I don't take care of her! Gah! Anyway, I obviously have a lot of resentment. I'm not trying to make this relationship work. I'm just trying to co-exist for the time being. Or am I just kidding myself? Should I just say 'eff it and just "let go and let god" as far as my daughter surviving. That's hard to do for sure, but I am going 'effing nut balls being around someone I genuinely cannot stand and even probably hate. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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