Guy Out There Posted August 3, 2010 Report Share Posted August 3, 2010 Don't read if you are in a fragile state of mind or are easily triggered. Click off this page now and don't view this page again.Today i realized after reading an article on mental health that several 'defects' in my life were actually symptoms of other mental illnesses (combined with what i already have form a few other disorders and problems).I can barely cope with the fact i suffered PTSD then being diagnosed with bipolar disorder and left to 'COPE AS BEST AS YOU CAN' for 3 or 4 weeks until i can get treatment!!!I can't last 3 or 4 weeks, it's 2 weeks until i see a specialist to discuss my 'mental health needs' what my mental health needs is a f.#@*ng brain transplant.I just can't take it, i can't leave the house i can't call people, my flimsy social life has now completly gone and i'm left with having to let people down, my work life (working for myself after quitting my other job) is suffering, i can't even call the people i need to so then they get pi**ed off and i don't make any money.I don't want to go back to the doctor, i went to see him 3 times in 2 weeks asking for support and telling him my symptoms had got worse and asking for some treatment but he refused saying he didn't want to 'contradict' the specialists treatment, CONTRADICT!!!! I'm not even having any bloody treatment, how can you contradict something i'm not even getting..This is getting out of control now, really. I just can't take it, i can't go to any hospital, emergency room or whatever else your supposed to do, dial the emergency services (999,911 etc), i can't face it, sure i'm feeling really suicidal and serious this time but there are people out there dying who deserve to live and if i call the ambulance and medics away people will die for the sake of me living. I can't let that happen.So the point of this really long rant is to say goodbye to you all, thank you for all the support over my time here, you've helped me through some tough times and given me a place to share my problems and most importantly have people listen. I'm not simply leaving the forums, i'm leaving this world for the reasons i have stated, i have no choice, no other options and the less i think about it the better.Who thinks twice about escaping from prison? Likewise for those who are a prison in their own mind (me) who thinks twice about suicide.Goodbye and thanks for the ride. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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