tarun829 Posted August 20, 2010 Report Share Posted August 20, 2010 Hi there everyone,I am a 28 y.o. male. I have a very difficult life, and am a big loser. Have done nothing, achieved nothing, and dont even have any friends.The reason is that I am plagued with bad luck, and have very difficult circumstances. Mental problems, family problems, health problems, you name it, I have everything. I have been in depression since very early childhood, so you know that I have had a problematic life since as early as possible. My life is nothing less than a nightmare. I have had better nightmares.The thing is I have always been a hugely optimistic person despite my exceptionally difficult life. So I have always fantasised about a day when everything will change, and I will finally have a normal and happy life. When I look around, I feel that everyone around is happy, and I am the only unhappy person. So I am continously thinking and fantasising about the good times, you know the friends, the success, the fun, the respect, the health; nothing of which I have right now.But as I am getting older, the hope is being replaced with fear. I am already 28!!! The really fun part of youth is already over. People who are 28 get serious, get married, have babies, and take up more responsibilities than ever. So I know I will never get to experience the kind of fun a regular 20 y.o., for example has, even if my life does around. That time is over. And I will never experience it. So I have that regret.I mentioned fear. Now since my age is increasing and optmism dwindling, I think about how the future is going to be, in reality. And obviously I find it frightening. I know in the future that these ugly things are going to continue, and on top of that I will be losing my parents with time, and with that my only only source of support and companionship. The future... is scary. Atleast now I have my mothers company, but thats not going to last forever, and then I will be absolutely lonely. The way things are going, nobody will even know if I am dead or alive. That is **cking scary to me.What do I do? How do I cope with this? Give me some of your perspective on this. How do other failed people cope with this sort of situation? I don't want to live alone, and I don't want to die alone.Thanks for reading. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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