Guest nejiwhopper Posted August 27, 2010 Report Share Posted August 27, 2010 I have had two breakdowns in the past 10 years. Both of which were while I was married to my ex-husband. The thing that I find interesting now, is that I felt my most secure and safe when I was with my ex-husband.His name was Keith and with Keith I always felt safe. I always knew he was there for me and would take care of me even if he didn't completely understand what was happening to me.Although my breakdowns were contributed to stress, my life was far less stressful than it is now. After our divorce, when my life began falling apart and I felt I had lost control of my life; I could physically feel that I was on the verge of a breakdown. But I had fought it with all that I had in me because I knew that Keith was no longer there and without Keith there would be no one to care for me. I knew that I would simply be put away somewhere and forgotten. That during my most vulnerable time when I would need nurturing and love that it would not be there for me. My situation has only gotten worse and that "physical" need for a breakdown is mounting but I know that it just can't happen. Not now, not here, not in this country.I have to stay strong...I have to keep fighting it. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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