Athena Posted October 30, 2010 Report Share Posted October 30, 2010 I was reading the relatively old "can of worms" thread, which I found quite helpful. I accidentally brought up my "can of worms" today in therapy while trying to describe my roller coaster of emotion (in regards to therapy) in the past two weeks.I could only find a metaphor to describe what I was going through. *I told my therapist that the first couple of days with him I felt like I found a liferaft and I was trying to decide whether it was worth the energy heaving myself into it from the choppy waters. *The next few days, I felt like the coastguard came and attached a line to it and I felt euphoric that somebody had finally showed up to take me to shore.*Then I felt like the line got cut and I was suddenly adrift again. *By putting it in these terms we were able to figure out that I need a fair bit of guidance/observation/feedback or some such input from the therapist (as I had experienced in my "euphoric" stage.) *If left on my own to free associate, I fear I will screw up the process, as I have my life. *It was at the point where I was told to "free associate" that I felt adrift. *He also got out of me that at around the same time, I felt the need to be held/hugged by him (he knows I have serious abandonment issues) but that I felt that was not a "safe" subject to talk about so stayed silent. *That contributed to feeling like I was "adrift".Anyway, we're back on track and I feel like the coast guard is taking me to shore again. *What a relief! * Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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