D Dub Posted December 4, 2010 Report Share Posted December 4, 2010 Just wanted to let everyone know I'm back. Sorry for disappearing, this computer got messed up and just got it fixed. I've still been struggling with my tiny penis. No suicide attempts but my confidence is at a all time low. My depression is getting worse by the day. I'm now in therapy for it. I have only got to do two sessions so far because one place sent me to another after my second session. This new place evaluated me but didn't tell me what she thought. I haven't got to meet with my new therapist yet so I'm still waiting for some serious therapy that I know I really need. The therapist at the first place made me feel like she really wants to help me and seemed seriously concerned for my well being. Maybe I'll try to go back to them. My mom is paying for it since I can't keep a job. Luckily it's dirt cheap because I proved I'm not working. I want to talk to my therapist about my issues with my tiny penis but I'm afraid she'll freak out on me. I know the majority of therapists think that issue isn't serious enough for their precious time. Maybe if I told her I tried to end my life 4 tmes because of it she'll be more understanding. Guess I need a sex therapist too. Or maybe just Mentalhelp!! I did get a chance at my old job delivering pizzas, but I freaked out and left. That made me realize that I have a severe case of social anxiety. The first therapist confirmed it. So now that really makes my battle even worse. I've had it for a long time but just now really seeing it. It's hard for me to be around people. I'm honestly scared of everybody but my parents. I'm so lost I just don't know what to do anymore. Still not back to playing drums and I think that's the main reason I'm lost. Now that plan A is long gone i really don't know what I want to do in life. Well I know i want to still play music but i need some serious therapy first. I guess that's enough for now, hope to hear from Irma and Dr. Allen soon. Oh and lifeless, good to see you back on here.Life it seems to fade awaydrifting further everydaygetting lost within myselfnothing matters no one elseI have lost the will to live simply nothing more to givethere is nothing more for meneed the end to set me free -Metallica Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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