am i a pedophile?

[roachmon95]

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[AmericanPsycho]

1. I don't know ANY teenage male that hasn't looked at some form of pornography. Natural order of things.

2. There's websites that specialize in taking pics and filming people that just turned 18. Couple that with good make-up and computer technology and you have adults looking much younger than they really are.

3. Masturbation is a part of everyday life for most people.

4. Breast size is no different than penis size. It's really just luck of the draw. I've seen 30 year old with nothing more than nipples. On the other end I've seen 2nd girls that were very pronounced when I was in 6th grade.

I suggest you get treatment ASAP because once you offend, you will again and again and again. You'll most likely end up somebody's "wife" in Club-Pen or get violated yourself. You'll eventually assault someone that's very capable of defending themselves and you'll end up 6 feet under.

So you're NOT a pedophile YET. Get moving and take the necessary steps to avoid becoming one.

[roachmon95]

well that will never happen. i love kids to much to hurt one. im just trying to figure out if this is ocd or a serious problem thats developing.

[AmericanPsycho]

well that will never happen. i love kids to much to hurt one. im just trying to figure out if this is ocd or a serious problem thats developing.

The latter of the two.

[AmericanPsycho]

Just a reminder that we aren't here to judge or make diagnoses.

Please read the last two sentences in post #2. I'm not judging the guy nor making any diagnoses. Just saying that I don't think it has anything to do with OCD.

[IrmaJean]

Let's remember to approach dialogue with the idea of supporting roachmon and the place he is in right now.

[AmericanPsycho]

It would help greatly if the OP would tell us about his childhood. This way we can narrow down what's actually causing the problem.

[AmericanPsycho]

I've never came across a person that has that issue due to OCD in every one that I researched. A bulk of the cases I researched where due to psychological problems. Severe emotional abuse, and certainly sexual abuse. Brain trauma from blunt force or something like a Tumor upstairs will do it.

[AmericanPsycho]

What is it that you've researched? If you've focused your research on actual offenders then I can see how you wouldn't have. The thing about ocd(from what I understand) is that someone can be obsessive about just about anything. So obsessing over the fear of becoming a pedophile seems like it could fit. I would imagine that such individuals never actually act out in a pedophillic way because of the issue is about fearing they are bad and not about doing or having done something that is actually bad. Does that make sense?

Is thinking about something more than usual obsessive, of course it is. COULDA SHOULDA WOULDA doesn't a mean a thing. There's a list of criteria a person must meet to have that illness. We all think criminal thoughts, we all just don't act criminal acts.

And I REPEAT, I DIDN'T say the OP was a pedophile. I obsessively think about killing people in my past. Thinking about killing a person doesn't make me a killer.

[Guest ASchwartz]

AmericanPsycho, and Roachmon95,

Originally Posted by roachmon95

well that will never happen. i love kids to much to hurt one. im just trying to figure out if this is ocd or a serious problem thats developing.

The latter of the two.

You say that you are not being judgemental. It seems and feels judgemental to me.

In addition, how do you know it's the "latter of the two?" It's never helpful to make predictions about other people.

Roachmon, While some people do view internet pornography, it is important for them and you to understand that the people who post this stuff are exploitative. After all, their real goal is to make money. Those sites are set up to take viewers to places they never intended. Many people have informed me that, when they view some of these sites they find themselves automatically being switched to child porn without them ever intending or wanting to. That becomes one of many types of hooks to get people addicted to and needing porn. Young people like you are especially vulnerable.

In other words, through no fault of your own, you have been made to think you are a pedophile. You are far from the first young man to fear this after viewing porn.

I am suggesting and urging you to stay away from the porn sites. They are not good for anyone.

Do you have a girlfriend?

Allan

[roachmon95]

no i dont. but i quit watching porn so thats not a problem anymore. it might be a good idea to mention i have ocd and this is something that im obbssesing about. but i dont take pleasure from it. i hate it. i dont fantasize about children, and i have no desire to. this situation has just become my latest obbssesion and i feel like this somehow defines me as a person.

[AmericanPsycho]

no i dont. but i quit watching porn so thats not a problem anymore. it might be a good idea to mention i have ocd and this is something that im obbssesing about. but i dont take pleasure from it. i hate it. i dont fantasize about children, and i have no desire to. this situation has just become my latest obbssesion and i feel like this somehow defines me as a person.

I believe you're thinking about it too much and letting it get inside your head. I've dealt with a similar issue before. Being molested for several years by my 1st stepfather had me questioning whether or not I was a Homosexual. Didn't help that classmates called me every Homosexual slur in the book but I eventually got past it and have no doubts that I'm straight.

[roachmon95]

well i too was more or less molested, but by a peer who happened to be my only friend at the time. this same peer admitted to me that he had also molested his 8 year old cousin when he was like 13. never had any serious problem until this event occured.