Mr. Encyclopedia Posted March 21, 2012 Report Share Posted March 21, 2012 I have been having issues coping with a profound fear of sex. I have never had sex but I was sexually abused when I was a child, an issue that I am dealing with a therapist whom specializes in trauma. No matter what the context the thought or images of sex can send me into a downhill spiral of anxiety and fear to a point that I can have a panic attack. It is my worst fear. I have little experience with relationships, love, intimacy, sex, and socializing. Being autistic, it can be painfully difficult to find others able to accept me, therefore I have spent a vast majority of my life alone working on my unique interests. A few months ago I came across pornographic videos online and was horribly disturbed by what I saw; it looks barbaric to me. How could I do that to a woman? Nor do I understand the thought process behind it. I love someone so I want to violate them? I don’t see the connection. It seems like such a horrible thing to do! And those videos have been ingrained into my photographic memory. I’ve tried asking others about this but nobody seems to understand me. There are almost no resources online for me about this. I see sex as being vulnerable, exposed, and violated. Can anyone offer me some advice? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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