AnonUser Posted April 6, 2012 Report Share Posted April 6, 2012 (edited) I've had two very intense panic attacks two days in a row now. These panic attacks have been centered around my fear of "becoming insane". However, in my case this fear was more -- at least in these two panic attacks -- centered around a fear of becoming schizophrenic; as in a fear of losing my self. I've had these fears, amongst a lot of other fears, since my childhood (see my previous thread for clarification.).To go in details about my current experience: It's like I am two people - the "I am", being the literal me; and the "robotic" I, which is the unconscious I.It's like I am watching myself act, not in the way that I am doing things which I would normally not do, but in the way that I feel like I am watching myself.It also feels like there's two minds inside me, although I KNOW I am I - or "I am myself".My thoughts seem to be very unfocused, and my overall ability to respond seems a bit slower - from my own observation.I guess to summarize my current feeling: it's like my mind is split. Also, I keep moving from the "I": the self focused, to the feeling of being two.I'm a bit scared of going to sleep, fearing that I'll have another one of these gruesome panic attacks.Edit. This is a bit embarrassing, and I suppose a bit ironic to my current situation: that smiley icon I chose doesn't really match up with the thread; as stated I am very tired.. Edited April 6, 2012 by AnonUser Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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