33 days ago my husband died and yet it still at times hits me as just being absolutely impossible. 32 years together and this is where it ends - regardless of the facts as he and I saw them - I guess that means death trumps all. There is this bizarre sub thinking process that existed always in my head - that "things will work out" type of thought. He certainly could not vanish at this point of his life because he had tons of unfinished business - especially in the relationship area and so we ha
My step son and his wife have been involved in domestic violence again. The children suffer so much. I always approach these things with the thought that if I think enough I should find the answers. We all play our roles and repeat this cycle over and over and over again. WTF is my role again? Oh yes, the idiot! I give up - I just give up.