Part of that, of course, is logging out of here occasionally.

Your writing is so pristine, I hate to ruin it with my comments.... sort of like newly fallen snow that you don't want to leave tracks on.

However, this is a support community, and we are supposed to participate with each other, so here come my footprints.

My experience with narcissism is that it is very dangerous to be close to someone who has it. You mentioned your wife might be; my mother is that way. I HAVE to be apart from her. We no longer interact. Being near her is life-threatening to me. I disappear from myself. I have no access to me in the midst of her extremely dominating, mentally ill presence. That is when I have been suicidal. It is that unbearable. Live becomes very one dimensional, and as such, unlivable.

Do you have ANY support network other than us? Can anyone help you to transition from this place and get to safety?

Meh, so long as the tracks aren't yellow, they have their own charm. :-)

I have family, though I've strained those ties. I think they'd support me, but quite reasonably, only after I made a move. I've tried to drag them in prematurely before ...

Or, maybe I'm just putting obstacles in my own way, again.