Well work's almost over. I got a lot accomplished today, so I suppose I should be happy about that. But I know I'm just going to have to go home. Is it strange to rather be away from the one that loves you, because you have no feeling at all left for her? Another night of lying to her each time she says "I love you", knowing that if I don't answer correctly, or answer at all, Hell awaits me in the form of yelling or guilt trips.
OW wants me to come and see her tonight, and I want to so very much. But I know it's just going to remind me of how badly I want us to be together, and how powerless I am in the face of Wifey to make it happen.
Why am I so desperate to spare Wifey's feelings? It's not like she ever took mine into consideration all the times she bossed me around, yelled at me, hit me, or any of the other things she's done.
I imagine I'll end up caving in to Wifey again, not even telling her about my ideal plans for tonight. I'm so pathetic.