I just realized how much fear I've been hiding from myself, recently. I think that's a big part of what's been fueling my depression and self-hate, at least in the last few months.
In a way, I'm glad to recognize it. It can also have a snowball effect if I dwell on it, though. I guess I have to accept the fear and verify it against reality, and change the things that are real that I have power over.
Logical, isn't it?