For some reason I am shaking a lot. It is hard to type. Could be addition of seroquel or withdrawal of the lamictal, or combination of both. Kind of scary but not enough to warrant any immediate action. May try calling pdoc tomorrow if this gets worse.

Sometimes I am clear and I can see what I need to do. Other times the suicidal and self destructive impulses come back. I know I am supposed to apply mindfulness at that point but it is hard for me to catch it before I am swept up in the drama.

I have a ton of schoolwork to deal with right now and may have to go off the meds so that I can get stuff done without being too foggy.