.... Is so much more apparent when you've had a break for a while. God it's weird how just one skipped dose can make all the symptoms come back. The thing is I don't have any plans to commit suicide so that isn't a worry. It is just that the constant thoughts of suicide interfere with my ability to concentrate. :confused:

Need to get work done though, and seroquel ain't helping me with that. Ironically I went to counseling for help with focus and they end up sending me to a shrink, who puts me on something that makes it harder to focus. :mad: This is doing nothing good for my paranoia, people. OTOH I need to travel in a couple weeks and have never been able to sleep on a plane. I reeeaaallly want to be able to use Seroquel as a sleep aid on the flight or I will be up for at least 28 hours straight. So if I get used to the med such that the drowsiness goes away, I'm pretty much screwed.

Yeah I know I need to do more meditation and stuff for the mental noise, but again, need to get work done. Fuuuuck me for deciding to do a dual for my masters degree. I'm too old for this. I don't want to be sick anymore.

On the bright side, rediscovered Swan Lake by Tchaikovsky.