I'm feeling a little bit better; the world that was going to end yesterday has thankfully averted catastrophe once again. :cool:

But still feel a general sense of being in trouble. When I was a kid I got in trouble a lot, and it wasn't because I intentionally broke the rules, it was just that I could never quite understand why the rules were what they are rather than something else.

As an adult it happens much less often but I still make mistakes from time to time. Since it has been a long time since I have gotten in trouble, I start to worry that the next mistake I make will be a very large one. There is this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I am not doing something that I was supposed to do and when that shoe drops it will be pretty bad. In reality I am more on top of my stuff than I was a couple weeks ago, so I have no idea why I cannot just convince my intuition that I am doing pretty much OK for the time being.

Well just writing about it helps. Once I can see it outside it seems to make more sense. It feels like that is what I need to be working on for now.