Some things are clicking for me. Setting goals finally. Scary because I don't know what getting old will be like after having been on all these various meds. I guess it doesn't help to worry about it though; what happens happens. This is big progress because I couldn't even think about this before. Now it's like pieces fall into place in my brain where as before they were spinning too fast for me to put any two thoughts together, like an engine at high RPMs but stuck in neutral - you don't want to shift into gear until the RPMs go down.

I'm having a confidence problem at work. I overloaded myself and now I'm disappointing everybody who has given me a deadline so far. It's Friday though, so next week I'll dust myself off and try again. Hopefully this weekend I'll figure out how to reset expectations and come up with something that can be delivered on.