Tuesday, February 7, 2012.
I want today to be a good day.
I'm in class right now, and probably should be taking notes, but it's one of those days where I feel like doing nothing. These are the days when I usually feel the worst. I may start crying for no reason, or get anxious and have to preform one of my rituals just to get my anxiety level down.
It bothers me that after all these years of being on medication, and doing my absolute best to figure out myself, and how to prevent my OCs, they STILL happen. I almost feel as though they are an addiction. Some people get anxious, and need to drink a beer to calm down. When I feel super anxious, I may NEED to check the trunk of my car to feel better. Except, I'd want to check it 7-10 times. Am I going to be this way forever!?
I know that over these 5 years, my OCs have calmed down tremendously, and aren't a part of my daily life anymore. But they're still a part of my weekly life.
I should be grateful that life has gotten even the slightest bit better for me, and I truly have been for the past 4 years or so. But I believe it's time for me to start making more progress. I'm ready for that next step.
I took this picture of my friends kittens a few months ago. The little black and white one had just got done yawning, and I caught him like this... It always makes me smile.
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The perfect quote to fit my day.
“This is when the magic happens: right when you feel like everything is going wrong, shift your attitude to accept that it’s actually going right. Our judgments of how we think our life should be are preventing us from reaching our Highest Potential. If you’re going through a storm, hold the belief that it’s the perfect storm for you to be going through and that you’ve been given everything you need to weather the storm. When the chaos subsides you will experience the Truth that is forever true; you are always taken care of, exactly where you need to be and your efforts are rewarded exactly when they need to be. Remember this Truth the next time a storm is on the horizon and you will grow wings and be able fly right over it and towards the calm waters of Trust and Love.”
- Jackson Kiddard, author & polymath.
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