Hmmm, what should I write about today? I had a very good appointment with my psychologist today. We talked a lot about the ego.
I had a pretty rough childhood with a lot of trauma. I will not go into that because I believe everyone is entitled to their own privacy. I do not want to divulge the private information of anyone else without their ok.
Anyways, I have denied all my life that the kind of childhood I had had any impact on who I am today. It is just recently that I have realized and admitted that the events of my childhood did a lot to shape the person I am today.
When you are a child your mind is a blank slate. It is ready and willing to be formed. In other words, your ego is fresh and just beginning to form itself. The ego forms itself through life experiences. Growing up in a traumatic atmosphere did not provide my ego with a lot of good things to learn and accept.
Don't get me wrong, I think I am a good person but some of the things I learned in childhood need to be changed. My ego is a little damaged. It is going to take a lot of hard work to undo the negative things I learned and replace them with positive things. I have taken the first step though - I have recognized and finally admitted to the negative things I learned and incorporated as a child. I am also at a point in my life where I feel strong enough and am completely willing to work on healing my ego.
It never fails to astound me how powerful our minds really are!
I have two blog sites if you wish to check them out. One blog site is about my life with depression and the other is a christmas craft blog. I just started the Christmas craft one so there is not too much there yet but you are welcome to take a look.