The bad person feeling is still “around” but kind of in the background.
Writing here helped my rationality stay a speck in the background when bad person took over. That’s been an issue for about the last year. Rationality could acknowledge bad person but when bad person took over, it could not acknowledge rationality. I guess maybe when rationality acknowledged bad person and evil person, it gained some strength – the strength of understanding, maybe, since that is what it is about? – and so it had enough strength on its own to stay around, as a speck.
Reminds me of yin and yang, kind of.
I had some sad, scary news Saturday but survived without bad person or depression (bad person directed inward?) totally taking over. Felt unbearably sad for awhile. But the intensity passed in another while. Still a little sad, scared, ashamed and/or guilty-feeling, but doing OK.
Feeling my feelings. “Cured.” There are some obviously painful aspects about that but the only way I can possibly stay functional at this point. So says my rationality and the rest of me agrees.