Where did you leave it? ;-)

Exactly! ah! You're funny

but more seriously, I guess I 'gave it' to the last guy I was with recently. In the sense that, after feeling unwanted by "C", I progressively lost all my positivity about myself as a person, about my looks, lost my zest for life arrrrrgggh... I started smoking again, and really reduce my good eating habits and my exercising.

See, I have to do this for myself right? I want to feel better about myself. So I do as much as I can right now... and I am waiting to see a therapist as well...on the 14th.