So, I've had a few days to work with the image of a couple of childish conscious parts trying to cover up for certain perceived but nearly unconscious weaknesses, and I thought to give an update on that.

First, the idea has helped to organize some widely disparate observations that I've made about myself lately. Not just obvious things, like my avoidance and procrastination on the divorce issues (i.e. fear of giving my ex a new handle by which to manipulate me, and instead giving her a different one by that very fear.) It also explains how I can feel like my better self even during the commute to work, and start snapping at people there, the first thing they say to me. Work, of course, is one of the areas where I'm on shaky ground. That makes me uncharacteristically intolerant of their shortcomings, simply because I'm so aware of mine.

And hopefully, the flip side of that is that the new awareness is helping me to accept these divisions inside me. Not so that I can stay divided, but so that they begin to find the common ground between them (such as, that they are all part of Me!) :-)

And, to the extent that I can tell, in such a short time, it's working. I feel more at peace with myself and those around me; after all, I exposed my deficiencies and so far, lightning has refused to strike me down ...

{Now I just hope I don't lose this post in a freak electrical storm ...}