So, after feeling I don't want to hang out with my best friend this weekend as I feel that
a] she's somewhat a bad influence on me in a way: she smokes, doesn't do much sport, likes to go to this seedy bar in her town, with a bunch of younger, drinking, smoking people that I find are wasting my time and my money, my energy too!
b] since I don't like her boyfriend who's just so needy, jealous, attention requiring and drunk, and always just wants cigarettes or a free ride, or free drinks, free food, free taxi from me anyway...I feel it would not be a good choice this week to go and hang out with them. It'll just end up making me grumpy!
c] I don't want to see C_ again this weekend and suffer! He lives in the same small town as my best friend, 4kms down her road...so.
SOOOOO, I am going Kayaking the whole weekend. With two friends. One that I like B_. He's nice to me. And N_ who's a bit bitchy to me, but I can deal. It's my best option. This is a Kayaking festival 3 hours away from here... Maybe I'll meet a nice guy who thinks I am actually worth his time! Ha! But at least I won't just sit here, going through my black thoughts for 2 and a half days! What a waste that would be! :eek: