So when to the T yesterday. I cried again. Well, she did say changes could happen rapidly, which is good. And comforted me. Somehow though, I want her to be my coach like the other T was, but that's not how she works. She's more detached in a way. She said that her work with people is more on the short term.
Then I was disappointed. Like 'oh, no! don't leave me now. It's not necessarily that I want to be in therapy for long, it's just that there seems to be a lack of follow up. She makes me read these books, and I sure do come in there and drive. Like, this is what I have done so far, questions...comments. but, she doesn't seem to challenge me, or my ideas. I don't know. I wanted schedules, plans, follow up, confrontation of how the plan is maybe irrealistic, based on what I want to work on...exercises, follow up again... You know.
She said, what you have to concentrate on is do things as if you were your own parent, a good parent that cares for you, and wants to make you happy and healthy.
Well, certainly I have heard that before, and do it to a certain extent, but maybe not enough. I will give it a go more full on.
What does the little girl want and need today, what would make you happy, mmm?