Hi folks... Hope you bloggies are well, my good friends and explorers of the mind...
Well, I just want to bounce ideas with you about this letter I am thinking of writing to Y. I probably will not send it, but just so to get your opinion as to 'am I off the tracks?", thinking right? too much?
anyway, let me know what you think...
well, I got your email.
Y, I did receive your email.
Sorry I didn't reply sooner. For the sake of clarity I will now. More bizarre things have happened...
In all honesty, when I talk to you last, I had already made up my mine. I had the impression that your heart wasn't ready for much. That there was still some unfinished story in your heart that made you bounce from this to that. That I was one of these bounces. I had to check before I moved on. To make sure I wasn't braking something good and that it was just time and space you needed. Sorry I put you on the spot.
Was I ready for more at that point? too much of a good thing is just as bad as not enough, that's where my mind was at. Balance. And talk it out. Is the only thing I can do. One thing is sure though, I was ready for getting to know you, lil by lil. Quite frankly, I can be just as content alone as with someone. And hearts, they heal. Frustration? yaaa, no fun but it's not like I can't handle that either. But to each is own.
I remember now, just before I called you, my favorite song from Massive Attack was playing while I worked. Funny. In hindsight, I wonder if it played a role in me trying to get it over with. I still think you're a good person, so don't worry. Wont avoid you like I would a rabid dog who also has swine flu and a crusty back.
Oh... that song was "tear drop on the fire" .