i can't stop crying. i keep thinking about everything that has happened over the past year. lots of good stuff has happened but it all ended. whenever something good happens it always has to end. i can't even write what i'm trying to say right now. i hope this year is different but really i know it won't because nothing can be fixed. this is how i'll always feel. i'm just tired of it. this time last year i was sitting on the floor crying as i wrote my first post and now i'm sitting on the floor crying again while i write this. so much stuff has got worse. my new years resolution last year was to get better and i've tried but it hasn't worked. i'm just useless and noone wants me.