danni Posted August 6, 2010 Report Share Posted August 6, 2010 Ever had "one of those days" every day?? Well....it's been one of those weeks. The "mask" isn't even working very well this week. I take such pride in being always in control, smile on my face, able to help with everything brought to me. But today, for probably the first time at work, I had one person tell me I looked sad and another say I looked tired. I'm embarassed because usually I can hide it so much better than that!! I smiled and said that I really was OK. I think they bought it. Most people I don't think noticed, fortunately. I think I handled the more than usual string of people who had a "fire" they wanted me to put out OK. But....now the truth comes as I'm here so exhausted but unable to sleep because of the racing thoughts of everything I have to get done tommorrow. It was really nice for a couple of weeks to only have to do my job and that of one other person on leave but starting tomorrow, another goes on vacation for two weeks and I am weary at even the thought of being 3 full time people. This has been going on for a year now!! A part of me looks back and thinks...wow...look at all I got done. Another part realizes that I have paid a price for all the long hours and very few days off. I'm especially weary because I am the emergency on-call person this weekend for the agency so it will be another long stretch between having any time for myself. God....even saying that sounds selfish to me!! why does the thought of going to work tomorrow leave me at the edge of tears. I like my job, I love my clients and the people I work with. I guess I'm just burned out and need a second wind. Oh well....I know I'll show up tomorrow with that smile back where it's supposed to be. I'll just be more careful not to let what's inside show. Give me my hose and my dalmation and bring on those "fires"! I'm not really looking for advice. The situation is what it is. I just needed to put somewhere that what shows on the outside is not what's felt on the inside. Thanks for listening Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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