nathan Posted August 17, 2010 Report Share Posted August 17, 2010 things are bothering me again. When i get like this, I usually do stupid things to try and kill it or runaway from it. The ego's of people really start to bother me, like I can't handle them becuase the amount of hate I have for the bs numbs me. I get anxious just watching two people interact on a scripted tv show. II swear my body is getting ready to pounce on someone. It;s actually worse watching tv then being with real people becuase there is nothing I can do to stop their ego's from running rampant, not to mention people are actually trying to play 'characters,' and thus start acting like a bunch of retards regardless. I think its getting worse, tv never used to bother me like this.I figured out why and when friend lies, and he does alot. Thats bothering me. I think i'm jeluous of him becuase he gets so many girls. They just feed off his dumbass fake ego and they love it. That's really getting to me when im in a state like this.I've been back home for a few months, and my mom is so taken over by her bs, I havnt had one straight converstaion with her the whole time. She is a slave to her emotions. My dads a slave to his 'logic,' I really wish there was a better word for that. Anyway, it's like dealing with two retards on opposite sides of the retard spectrum. Its watching ppl's ego's go off that sparks my anxiety. and I'm really anxious right now. Whenever I just try to enjoy myself, i seem to get hit by somones bs. Last time I was like this I got six cops to beat the shit out of me. For some reason I enjoy the harboring the memory of one of the cops punching me in the face and my none reaction to it. cant sleep, anxiety gets in the way. what else, I could go on forever with these ego and anxiety things, but anyway, its really bothering me. Ill just drink myself stupid, it actually works. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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