Guy Out There Posted August 18, 2010 Report Share Posted August 18, 2010 [Contains triggers]Today was the day of my appointment with a specialist, i'd been looking forward to it for some time...I had an in depth assesment with a nurse and was then sent to a mental hospital for assesment. It brought back horrible memories and i nearly freaked out several times.Taken into this small office and facing interrogation with this big guy you don't want to mess with, he had a presence about him, he asked a couple of questions and wrote lots of notes from my previous assesment with the nurse.Finally after a series of long pauses he announces... "It appears you have a very bizare schizophrenia".The worst diagnosis possible Now lets talk about treatment, at least there is some good news, i'm going to recover right?"I'm sending you to the *** team, do you know AP?"Of course i fu*king do, i was treated with them for PTSD and i fu*king hated it, i didn't get on with treatment, they did test after test after fu*king test and offered the diagnosis of "mild anxiety". Mild fu*king anxiety! Worst of all they DON'T GIVE MEDICATION!How the fu*k am i supposed to recover with a fu*king team that didn't help me without fu*king medication, with the worst fu*king diagnosis fu*king possible. Well at least it wasn't a brain tumor... (Yeah but i had to lie to stop the guy sectioning me!!!!!)I don't get a say in my care, i was too scared to open my mouth and say something, i have bad memories of the mental hospital. You know i might just go and harm myself right now, go and kill myself, that way i'll either die or get fucking treated better, i can't stand it, i reach out for help and they bundle me with a team i didn't get on with who didn't help me!!!!!!!(Sorry about the language etc i'm really very angry and depressed right now, please censor it if you must, i tried but i'm in such a rage i'm just going to get that blade out of my pocket and paint my shirt red).Help someone? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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