Guy Out There Posted August 23, 2010 Report Share Posted August 23, 2010 Went to see my doctor again today, the first time after my assesment. I found out he arranged it and he reffered to it as 'an emergecy assesment'. The only time i've heard it called that is under the mental health act, my alarm bells were ringing.He is very friendly and we were discussing whether it was wise for me to be starting a new job soon, suddenly the atmosphere changed. He read my notes..."Jack, it appears you have been having hallucinations, you are aware that they are not real right?" (Some of the things i see i know are not real but i experience other things that i know are real but are covered up so nobody else can find them..)I was about to answer when he interrupted.. "As long as you realise they are not real we won't be needing to send you to hospital"Suddenly i was triggered :mad: Oh God i can't even talk to my own doctor about my problems because he is all too keen to cart me of to the local mental hospital if he suspects i'm ill.To make things worse if you read my other thread (dead, alive, dead, don't want to be alive again), you'll know about my therapist situation. The biggest problem with them was that it took them forever to send an appointment, then they would cancel the appointment at the last minuite and rearrange it, cancel it etc, i'm in need right now and don't have access to help, times are tough.All i wanted was to get help, i never wanted all this, the experiments, the trauma, the torture. I didn't choose to have a mental illness, nobody does, it just happens. Sorry for rambling on about myself so much recently but i'm just going through a time where i feel i need to be talking about my own problems (and fixing them) rather than just listening to other people's problems, if that makes me sound insensitive i apologise but it wasn't my intention..Take Care and thanks for listening, Jack [Guy] Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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