confusedboy16 Posted September 27, 2010 Report Share Posted September 27, 2010 Hello,I'm ConfusedBoy. Recently, since two weeks ago, I've been worrying about being a pedophile. Everyone says it's OCD, because I've obbsessed over this before, along with thinking I was a psychopath, but, this time it f eel real. I feel like I am genuinly attracted to children. I'm confused and feeling depressed and suicidal. I keep thinking if I am one I'll kill myself. The reason I worry is because I have masturbated over children before. I've seen children, well I think they were children, out and about, and found them attracted. I've never thought about having sex with a child, or anyone at that. Now a male, female or child. I have NO sexual desire. I'm 16, gay, and have a foot fetish. I get worried about going out in public, incase I see a child. I'm constantly questioning myself, saying "what if...", "I will kill myself if I'm one...". I just can't get it out of my head. I don't know what to do. It comes and goes. I may obbsess one week, then it's gone the next. When the obbsession is not there I don't even notice children. The thought of a child never comes into my mind. I don't worry about this. I feel like I'm just in denial, am I? Am I a monster? Am I just "confused"? If so, how can I just be confused? I feel like my mind's playing trick's on me, but I think this attraction is real. I worry what I might do when I'm older, I've read a pedophile always acts on their urges. Even if I see a child on the TV I have to turn over, or something about a child, etc. I've had thoughts in my head, thoughts which just pop up. I'm so worried. What should I do? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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